Made a wish, I can dream
I can be what I want to be
Not afraid to live my life
And fulfil my fantasies
I learnt a lot of tricks to help me live my life
You helped me find my paradise
When you came I saw
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far
Reaching out, for the highs
You inspired me to try
I felt the magic inside
And I felt that I could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
'Cos when you came you were my
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far
You are the calm
I am the storm
You are the breeze that carries me on
When I said a truth
You wink at me
You're there for me
Sunshine (oh yeah)
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
(Sunshine) Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine
My star, my star..
You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything i wish i did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you
I know i should tell you how i feel
I wish everyone would disappear
Every time time you call me,
I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say
Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you
You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me things that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way
Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you
Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush
You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...
i feel weird. too strange to be put in words. feels like i'm havin' the after effect of caffaine, though i did not drink any coffee today. only one small sip from shirley's iced-coffee yesterday. anyway, it wasn't about the coffee at all.
okay. so penang was fun. though the plans did not work out. all of 'em, in fact. but we all had a fun time there, visiting almost all the tourism spots there could be found in penang. bukit bendera, kek lok si, botanical garden, and a lot more. we even went to the beach today. it was cool. i did have a great time there, but there were times i feel down there. i was so damn bored on the bus. regretting over not bringing a storybook along. i wished i had. so, basically i just sat there and stare out at the boring sceneries on our journey back, with a mind filled with confusion and thoughts. playing games from my pocket pc and handphone sometimes. and chatting once in a while.
when we left penang, i was feeling so damn glad. but when we finally had to part, i was kinda reluctant to leave. and by the end of the day, i still feel weird, weird, wEIRD.
Coz time will pass me by,
Maybe I'll never learn to smile,
But I know I'll make it through,
If you wait for me...
seyin's coming home reaaaallll soon....and i can't wait. i'm leavin in about 13 hours away. which is making me a little sad.. somehow.
i'm gonna miss yah alll....especially you...*hUg* *hUg* and you and you *hug*. *smiles*
celine is home, and now i'm still waiting for seyin to come home....sigghh...*speechless*
yayy...seyin's comin home tonight!! *miss yahh* and missing the handphone as well.. hehe. i've just written a two and a half hours of four and a quarter pages of journal entry. it's not like i'm doing it on purpose (i was hoping to finish it up before tmrw), so that i could start my fourth book. it's not like i haven't been writing my journal for ages; i wrote it every single day. i really didn't expect i'll have so much to write today. guess i must've been a little too lazy to get my schoolworks and revision done. haha. mom won't let me use the pc....not grounded, but not exactly banned. it's more like a warning. just reminding me not to use so much. but since i'm home alone...again.. she wouldn't know.
i have absolutely nothing to worry about these days but my studies. cause i just don't seem to be studying. and i've been trying so hard to. i guess i need a break, but right now, i don't feel like going to penang, leaving my home sweeeeet home. haaha. not at all. cause i'll miss everything i can do at home. i'm gonna miss the internet..especially. and the pc. and the tv and books..and my bed. and my pillows.. duhh...for heaven's sake..why the hell am i crappin' here. lol.
You have high standards for yourself, and try desperately to live up to them. But when you are unable to reach those goals, you fall into a deep depression. People see you as a brilliant person, yet inside, you are full of self-doubt and fear of failure. You need to set more reasonable goals.
Your song is: About to Crash
Which degree of inner turbulence are you?
This quiz was made by Dionae
eekkss...wut a....result..lol..
i'm *missing* u damn lot.. for the next few dayz i will be homesick and missing ya too..
i'm going to get myself do some art, then i'll probably go pack the stuffs i need to bring to penang on tues.. damn..i'm gonna miss ya.
hehe...it feels funny to be chatting wif ya through the internet and handphone-sms...*sobb* haha..not going to get all emotional over this. =P
i'll be leaving to penang soon...and i can't guarantee i will be all too happy, but i sure will try to enjoy myself.
good enough it's on tuesday, cause i won't miss Dawsons' Creek and Friends, and the finalé of a Duke Of The Mount Deer...or something like that. heheh...
and good enough there's one day in between so i could have a long long talk with *U* :) got loasa stuffs to catch up..show ya and tell ya and all...
..and i can't guarantee i won't come back much much heavier. cause mom gave me an extra 50 bucks to spend. i remembered the last time i went there. it was all about the food - we ate 24/7. from morning till night, almost back to back. it was hari raya 2 years back.. when i last went there. daddy's friends and ex-colleagues was so kind, they brought us around from one corner of the island to the other, just to eat. haha.. i was still washing up when they arrived at our hotel, and told us they're bringing us to have breakfast - bak kut teh. and right after that, really right after, we went to balik pulau for the famous penang laksa and prawn noodles. the best penang laksa on earth. lol. of course, it took us longer to reach there, than the time we spent there. mom and dad always say that the car petrol money is even more than the food's money. we ordered a whole tableful of food..all kinds of everything. and mom made me eat two bowls of noodles. i was already steaming on both my ears...too *spicy*..couldn't stand it. haha. wonder why i used to hate curry last time. and the first time i actually tried it was around standard 4 or 5!
i was already bloated by the time we finished everything, and on our way back to Georgetown, we stopped by at a market, cause my dad's friend said the don't-know-wut noodle is amazingly delicious, and mom wanted to try it out. gawwssh...haha....and i refused to have dinner that night at Gurney Drive.
i finally remember how did i manage to stumble through the days when se yin went for her ubs trips. i tidy the room -- this keeps me busy enough, for days. because i spend a very very long time to clean the room. i couldn't stand the dusts..
too bored out last night, so i went in mIRC..hitz.fm chatroom. it's been almost a month or more since i last stepped into that place. it's boring, but i chatted with ky. and he told me about the gath-- eating at Fish & Co. Danggg...shitzz. i really wanna dine in there..maybe i should've just go out and hang out alone with them...then eat chips- that's the only one i could afford, cause i will have to save money to spend in penang. i'm dreadfully missing the old times, today. don't know why. it seems i've been thinking about the times spent with caryn when i was younger, and then missing last year...chatting online almost 24/7..(though i do find it a waste of time and the most uninteresting thing to do on earth) and missed fish & co. sometimes, it kept me wondering why last year had been so significant to me. i missed the m2m showcase where i reach home only by 1:30 a.m. and january1st, when i reached home at 4:30a.m. which earned me a great load of scolding from daddy on the first day of the year. haha
for the don't-know-how many time, i'm online again....still trying to find something to do. it's just not the same without my sis by my side. she's the one who's always there for me and will always be with me. though it's also good that we be apart for a day or two. but this time, it almost seem like 6 days in a row. almost..but almost doesn't count. so.. it's approximately six days.
i wished i could go for a movie or something. mere wishes that would never come true. cause i've been too lazy to even get me arse up to change and step outta the house. too bored out today, i created a new layout for this site. it wasn't exactly marvellous. not a bit impressing. but it was okay. let's say...i rate...c+.
in the midst of boredom, caryn called to save the day. we chatted...for don't-know-how long and there were quite a lot of stuffs we talked about. i missed those times back then when we chatted almost every night. sometimes more than an hour. till both our mothers started grumbling about the phone bill, only then we will reluctantly hang up the phone. but it's not like we're not going to meet the next day in school. that's what mom always say, anyway.
it's funny how we could be so close back then, and suddenly became almost complete strangers after a year or so of not in the same class. three, to be exact. and somehow, we got back pretty close together. i still remember how we used to fight over silly little matters that aren't even problems. haha...but we were just kids then. it's nice chatting with her. it feels like the old times, only better. the fights wouldn't even matter anymore, by the time we turn 19 and going seperate ways-- striving to reach our goals. trying to achieve what we want to achieve.
shortly after i hung up the phone from the long talk with caryn, sarah called. and again...i chatted. we talked about going out...and everyhting in between. with sarah constantly complaining how she's rotting at home already; and i worrying if i'm ever going to enjoy my trip to penang. but since i've already paid for it, i'll just have to go with an open heart. =)
we hugged, and said goodbye. good enough that i was able to wake up before she left. i'm sure days just wouldn't be as fun without her with me. but..hey, i will survive.. it's not like this is the first time she went on trips like this.
she'll only be gone for, three days. or maybe i could just pretend it's two and a half...
i don't know why i just don't feel like going out this holiday. i had been down lately. pretty much the same, though. school's website had been keeping me a lot lot occupied, and it was a good escape from all my troubles. all the same, it's bringing me stress and pressure.
i still remember being too carefree, and ignorant last year. i wasn't caring about anything. didn't even take studies all too seriously. i spent hours chatting and onlining everyday, straight after i reach home from school. tuitions last year was fun-- especially Murali's classes. Afiq, Yassin..who called himself 'raja mesir' or 'firaun' and the others had been keeping the amusement...entertaining the class. i still remember how we used to try reaching tuition as early as we could to get that particular place : we are actually trying to take the place where they used to sit because we wanted to lean on the wall. okay. so i didn't really like that place. i usually sit one row in forward... :)
and i wonder what's happening to me now. i know so damn well i shouldn't be complaining about life. after all, Mom spent her whole day just bringing me around town. and bought seyin and i a new handphone.. it's not the handphone of my dreams, but it used to be one of them. and it looks exactly like daddy's. haha. alright. i'm okay with it. i'm already grateful enough she's willing to spend so much on me. i promised myself i won't ask for too much, and i sure will keep that.
Congrats! You've struck a good balance between preparing for the future and appreciating the present. It's nice to enjoy a paycheck by buying yourself something like a CD, but you're future-conscious enough not to blow it all. You're looking ahead without getting thrown by bumps in the road...and apprciating the journey, too.
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how do you handle your future?
skipped school again today...d=þ
i am thinking of getting my own domain name...hmm..but not so soon, i guess. i am targetting for something else right now, and wondering when will i ever going to achieve it.
was gettin' too lazy to go online... too lazy to study...too busy reading that thick, thick book....... spent my whole night reading that javascript book.... man, i want to learn all the languages 'til i can master java...hehehee
spent a whole day in school at the webmasters room struggling to create the template.. and having to think of how everyone else might or might not like it. especially visitors...and i am really running outta ideas on even which color to use as the theme color. but it was good to be able to escape from the boredom in class. only thing is that i'm beginning to feel as though i've been studyin in a programming school or taking up some kinda web designing. haha..
last night i almost couldn't sleep. i've been having too little rests these days, yet too much. i hate afternoon naps, but i was too bored out, and having nothing to do. afternoons always get me eyes closed, and i gets sleepy most during boring, long afternoons. especially when i had to study...lol. i spent a whole day in school yesterday just roaming 'round the internet....and wayyy too freakingly bored out.. i went into #hitz.fm chatroom. it had been quite some time, in fact, a long time, since i last step into mirc, and chatting with ky. gave me a url to redirect to my site which i've already abandoned. you won't be impressed by what you see there an'way.
got back bm paper I & II yesterday. and also chem paper I, and math I.....sighh...how on earth did i manage to score so damn high for bm paper I ?! gawwsshh...
math I - 92%
bm I - 51%
bm II - 83%
chem I - ?! [don't remember]
though of not going online at home.. and don't feel like blogging in a while. i am bored. and gawshh......do i have to mention? -- depressed. it had been the worst exams ever. at least that's what i think.
damn...the school's server is sooooooo fast that it took almost forever to even load the main page of the blogger.
was suppose to stay back for webmasters today, but i ain't feeling like it an'more. yisan and yinsan is going to get the teacher's day gift after school, and soolee's havin lit. class. i do prefer to go home, and have my lunch ...hopefully..i wish mom will cook... darn hungry right now......couldn't even do an'thing else other than drinking water. i wantt to eat in the class....... heh
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i doubt i should be even onlining now... have a whole pile of homeworks yet to be done, tons and tons of revision to do...plus..damn lot of other stuffs... mannn...
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whattt?? nicole kidman...nooo wayyy!!!
yeeekkzz......i'm getting a little tired of quizzes....
when mom called home from genting yesterday, i did miss her. just don't tell her. =þ
sheezzz.....somehow dad went into my room, and found my handphone alive...dang....wonder is he'll still get us a new phone, or he'll not.....
i was planning to study the entire day today, but ended up in front of the pc. i'm alwaaaaayyss like that...
Take the Which Spider-Man Character Are You? quiz by ZyberGoat
too bored out at home and ain't studying...so i took way too many dumb quizzes...
i know what i am doing, and i know i am wasting $$$.... the bill is going to be reaaaalllll high, and mommy's gonna ground me for God knows how long..and by then i would stop using the internet overboard.
got a missed call from don't-know-who. it's 607-..where's it? melaka? *shrugs*..i don't know.
i'm kinda grateful the phone's finally back to life...but just don't let mom or dad know bout it... else they won't get us a new phone!~ man.
they promised to get me a nokia ..... but i don't want 8250...
i want... i want... i waaannnttt... :(
which season are you?
eekZzz...i don't wanna be a season!~ but i love autumn......the breeze..the brown and yellowish sight..the beautiful leaves...the breeze -- that's the best part.
Which era in time are you?
what?? am i realllyy that old fashioned??
Which Piercing are you?
hah...wut the heck is this?
Which Real World cast member are you?
You're the FONT tag- some people ignore you, some people adore you. When you like someone, you like them a lot, but when you don't like them- watch out. ::
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sheezz....kept on kicking the hennessy under the table....why the heck did mom put it in the study room..man..wonder if it's broken. had been kicking it a few hundred times.
kinda hard to tell what i am actually ..... feeling now. mixture of happy and sad and disappointed and angry .. gawd..and everything in between. i don't need to mention just one more time 'bout how i have been abandoning my studies..i know i am wrong. still couldn't change.... yet, feeling a little glad cause exams are going to be over.
only one more damn paper to go...that's chem II.. darn..i hate chem.
they can say anything they want to say
try to bring me down, but I will not allow
anyone to succeed.. hanging clouds over me
and they can try hard
to make me feel that I don't matter at all
but I refuse to falter in what I believe
or lose faith in my dreams
cause there's a light in me
that shines brightly
they can try
but they can't take that away from me
they can do anything they want to you
if you let them in but they won't ever win
if you cling to your pride and just push them aside
see, i have learned there's an inner peace I own
something in my soul
that they cannot possess
so I won't be afraid and darkness will fade
they can't take this
precious love
i'll always have inside me
certainly the Lord will guide me
where i need to go
they can say anything they want to say
try to break me down
but i won't face the ground
i will rise steadily
sailing out of their reach
oh Lord
they do try hard
to make me feel that I don't matter at all
but I refuse to falter
in what I believe
or lose faith in my dreams
cause there's a light in me that shines brightly
they can try ....but they can't take that away from me
from me
the second time of skipping school this week...did some add math questions....chem...ughh....later
i suddenly recollect those old memories of that little girl in me.
sham came over to talk with me for a split second at the library yesterday. how could i forget to wish such a dear pal of mine goodluck in her exams!? what's more...i've known her since primary one.
yet, knowing how way leads on to way -- and i've just gotta move on. i recollect those times when we played bobdog, garfield, and minnie. i was snoopy. it was just a game. a kid's fantasy. but it had been fun... we wrote letters in a paper scrap. it was during a kajian tempatan lesson that sue ann and i started the game. we used those paper scrap cutted out from the extra sides of a worksheet. wrote letters to each other using the snoopy and garfield name..i still keep those paper scraps till now. never thrown any of em away. *checks them* yea..they're safely kept in my..uh...secret box.
sadly, i did have a misunderstanding with sham back then when i foolishly just wouldn't let her join in. i know i had been a jerk. a snob. i have few friends, and i guess people just don't like me then. i refused to let anyone else join in this little game. then i wanted to be garfield because i bought this garfield stamp. we dissed sue ann.. gawwssh. i could not ever forget how much much of a jerk i had been.
we always have misunderstandings throughout our friendship..don't we? *sigh* life is just never easy. it twists and turns .... with vultures and thieves at our back. the storm kept on twisting. and we live in a lie. thinking back, i came to realize just what an intolerant lil kid i was. and i was foolishly too hard-headed and we argued too damn much. over minor little stuffs. but it was just the never compromising attitude we have.
i did what i gotta do -- just not all. i did try telling myself to study. i learnt my lesson today.... for not studying. and for staying up till late night -- for relaxing and taking everything way too easy. for not stuyding earlier. hope i will not fail my add math. i thought it's going to be easy, well at least not as tough. or maybe it's just cause i didn't study enough. *shrugs* i don't know. the prob is, i wouldn't change
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i can still remember the time you were there when i needed to hold you,
every time i ask you to find a new way,
you lie a new way
is it gone?
you’ll change -- you’ll never change, you’re never never gonna keep your promises
you said you’d change but i’m afraid, it’s something i won’t live to see,
it seems so strange , that sometimes fate,
can appear to be so real and yet turn out to be a fantasy,
same old line, one more time,
say you’re gonna be, there for me,
say you’ll change -- change your ways,
never gonna keep your promises,
same old game,
brand new day, you’re singing that same old song..
No more lies...if you don’t wanna find me gone gone gone
another night another day,
what can i say?
you’re still the same old brand new you...you break your promises in two,
what can i do? when you’re the same old brand new you
you’ll change.... you’ll never change,
you’re never never gonna keep your promises
because of you, I guess we’re through
is this the way it has to be?
i’ve been a fool... a fool for you
but i’ve got better things to do then let you walk all over me
- [a1 : same old brand new]
math paper I is so much much more better than paper II. i couldn't even manage to finish up all the questions in paper II cause i don't even know how to do some of the questions. i manage to finish up most of the questions, anyway. and after that, i just didn't feel like revising add. math anymore... i spent practically 4 hours in front of the p.c. straight home from school. got scolded from mommy when she came home. i hate it when she knows i have exams, cause she will never let me use the com. not even a bit. well...not like she really like it during those normal days when i don't have exams anyway..
this is what i wrote during the extra time of math paper I
too lazy to study for my exams, and too obsessed with the blog thingy. that's the whole prob.. i was not even doing any add math revision yesterday. gaawwshh..
i suddenly start missing this song :- which reminds me a lot about my primary school days. especially primary 6..or was it 5..or 4? .. *shrugs* i don't quite remember.. heh.. it also reminds me of ... tuition at mrs. ... during that year. i think it must be early standard 6..
i was trying to figure out why my sketch is so out of propotion, and ....uh..cacat-ed .. an'way.. math's really making me sick. it used to be so nice to me..... somehow, i look at it now, and i become so sleepy.. dang... how am i suppose to finish revising in time for the 2 mod math papers tmrw??
an unsuccessful attempt to sketch ki.
skipped school, and skipped breakfast. okay, i know how unhealthy it is, and how important breakfast is. didn't deny it. but my house is just, somehow, running out of food for breakfast. Mom went out - driving celine to coll. dad went to work. adek came, she only clean the house. she don't do the cooking stuffs. so i just eat a few sticks of choc love letters and drank water.
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i know i am not the only one out here who's feeling sorry for myself, and pitying myself. but i feel pathetic. not being able to finish my revisions for test, and again..repeating the same old last minute preparation for my exams. i really wonder how i managed to survived through the last assessment just studying like .... ugh.. i don't know. and i did finish my revision almost about a week before exams. though i wasn't able to finish history, and got a 69% for it. i just dozed off while reading hist on the bed. luckily i didn't this time, but, well...that's cause i wasn't even studying for it; and kept having the last minutes all-tensed-up symptom[?].. whatever.
out of boredom, i washed all the dishes that had been there since yesterday morning till night - and it took me quite long to wash them all up. and tidy up the kitchen, since the housekeeper don't work on weekends; and the house is in a mess.. but i was kinda, lazy.. so i think i should just leave the sweeping for adik, since she'll be coming over tmrw morn.
i did a few math question, and managed to finish up half of the 1993 question. still trying to find where the heck did my concentration hide. i really need some kind of motivation right now. back then when i so didn't need it, there was this stupid motivation seminar in school. and now i needed one. definitely needed one.
my grades will be slipping off, and daddy won't be pleased.. though he might not scold or shout at me. but, i just didn't want him to question me with his "why did you score a c for history... and add. maths?" question. i hate it.
it's mother's day today, and i didn't get anything for mommy this year. just like last yr. not like i even intend to. seriously, i don't even know what to get her, and since she always say that there's no need to get her any presents .. i guess i don't have to, but celine bought mom a present from klcc, and she wanted to share is with us. i didn't even have the chance to get out of house, and my money are running dry.. not exactly, but i am saving them up for my futher studies and to buy stuffs i really wanted. like the notebook p.c. even though i know dad would get me one when i grow up - one day. which means someday, and that day could be anytime far from next few years.
and it's also crystal's birthday. i was thinking of getting her a bday gift.. but, i guess the plan didn't quite work out. heh
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[asongformama]
you taught me everything,
and everything you've given me
i always keep it inside
you're the driving force in my life
there isn't anything or anyone that i can be
and it just wouldn't feel right
if i didn't have you by my side
you were there for me to love and care for me
when skies were grey
whenever i was down you were always there
to comfort me
and no one else can be
what you have been to me
you'll always be the girl in my life
for all times
mama, you know i love you
mama, you're the gueen of my heart
your love is like tears from the stars
mama, i just want you to know
lovin' you is like food to my soul
you're always down for me
had always been around for me even when i was bad
you showed me right from my wrong
and you took up for me when everyone was downin' for me
you always did understand
you gave me strength to go on
there was so many times looking back when i was so afraid
and then you came to me and say to me
i can face anything and no one else can do what you have done for me
you'll always be the in my heart
[/asongformama]
-boyzIImen #a song for mama
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i happened to listen to graduation by vitamin c on hitz.fm, and somehow, i got all sentimental over it. =|
for, like, the first time after million light years; and getting bored over it back then. and i think of what everyone else in the school; and everyone that i've ever known in school would come out to be. wonder what the future holds. wonder will everyone still be in contact by the time we turn 25, and years ahead.
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just don't feel like studying today and didn't even touch half a chapter, though i managed to flip through one of the chapters of chem and did manage to stay awake the whole day through but the worst thing was not having my breakfast and dinner.. i only had choclate milk for both the meals.
i watched a movie marathon last night, at home just to kill time.
again, i've been thinking of nothing more than....uh...bb walk. damn i miss it.
memories of those late nights working at the
sarah, crystal, shireen,
dvine, and sooky.
i guess i had been going out too much back some few weeks before hols. i skipped school alternate days, and went out every single saturday. and mom finally called a stop to it. she said dvine and i cannot go out anymore. i guess, at first, the job was something i've been looking forward to get out of home. thinking back, i still think it is.
i remembered the first day i went there, to apply for the job, i had to change into the navy blue uniform, and the pair of bermudas that is actually way too large for me. but thankfully, it won't slip off. heh. i was paired up with sarah, and we had to wipe dusts off the chair for the opening, which is tomorrow. the best part was, we even have the chance to be testers, and tryout the dishes. i love the calamari and mussels.. especially the garlic lemon butter sauce. yumm. and the passion fruit is one amazing drink; plus the yellow butter rice with raisins.
we had to memorize the menu, but i was too lazy to; somehow, i did try to remember, and i could. my three-days training sessions were from 5-9p.m. but i actually worked from 5-11p.m. since dvine's shift is 6-11. i did the closing; sweeping, mopping, wiping wooden blocks and folding table cloths, putting away cutleries or arranging them back at the side stations.. dang, i love the closing~
azura was having the same
shift as i am, so we usually go in together. dvine will spend about an hour at
tower records listening to albums like: world of my own, and.. i don't know.
i also still remember sook fun, alan, jackson, didi and shah. they were the ones that i knew quite well. working together during the training. but i had to be the greeter for two consecutive days. and that bores me down my spine. but it was an experience. a worthwhile one.
distributing flyers will be one thing i will never forget. cause i learn to be nice to those flyer distributers the next time i meet one. it made me realize how hard it is for them. for me, back then. and if you
want people to treat you kind, you
have to treat them well too.
if i were to tell out the whole story of my experience working at
fish & co., it will take me forever to finish it.
this isn't the best working experience i've had in my life, but it sure is a wonderful first job.. a meal at swenson's and shopping with jen..how could i forget? she had been good to me.
and then sam and susan, though they looked stern, and scarryy at first, they actually are the
best managers i
could ever ask for; and being their friends and dining with them at sõcieté cafe.. they are real nice and fun to be with.
and even though the party on 29th wasn't all too extra-ordinarily marvellous, it still is a memorable one. most of all, having
pizzzzas as one of the food.
29th december, 2001 : christmas-farewell party
it was a special experience - spending time together with my school and class mates in a different way that holiday; though it had made me not able to go hang out a the malls with my friends and sis, but i never regretted any time spent, even extra hours worked there.
i treasured those times because of the things it has made me realize. and the lessons in life i learn. i can't promise i will remember those moments forever, but one thing for sure.. i will never forget all those people that have crossed my path especially during that holiday, and those who have been good to me.
You are a Desert-Prarie Beauty...Warm, Friendly, Sincere, You are down to earth, Practical-minded and you still know how to have a great time!
Which Woman of Beauty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.
i studied till 2 a.m. yesterday night, and didn't manage to wake up at 6:30 a.m. this morning. sis woke me up so many times, but i still continue on sleeping till i was almost late.. i reach school with thiiiissss little memory of form 4's history facts.. gawd... but .. hmm..well, i manage to read until chapter 5 though - halfway through. memorizing history last minute have always been what i did. especially together with yi san. haha. we have all the time in the world after the first paper -- and luckily, i manage to finish up memorizing all the important facts..goshh...that was scary.
i can't wait for exams to be over. can't wait to jam the pc. can't wait to go downtown. can't wait to have that cup of latte and chat with you. can't wait to go holidays.....
most of all. i can't wait for spm to be over. imagine.. contact lens...clearing books away from the already-packed study room...shopping spree..new hp..hmm... i wonder when will mom get me the new one..she said she will, but i doubt she will. i can't wait for prom night...gonna change myself a whole new look...lol
for the hundredth time...i've been missing you
i couldn't get you out of my mind... but i've not been seeing you for ages..
and we did not really talk much
hence i doubt you even remember me-
...
:: here we are, just a little older
time goes by, but did i ever tell you
why i want you so much?
it came to me when you were not around
you'll always be the one who understand
that's why i can't miss your touch
all my life, i've waited for someone
and all these time, you were the one ::
i wish i could turn back the time and rectify everything i've done wrong.. for the life of me, i could not remember what made me think that i am wise and i never compromise.
i had a hard time just trying to figure out what i've done wrong for all these time. thinking back, i realized just what a fool i've been. but, anyway....
bio lessons are always great. sometimes, we could spend our time chattering away while teacher crap in front. sometimes, pn. raja just goes out of the topic and she'll start takling about something out of syllabus, and talking about herself.. other times, i paid full attention.
either way, the lesson will surely be just as great.. after all, what's biology without life? today, teacher taught us bout the nervous system. we had a fun time laughing away, about everything in between. about the fingers and rings, and jumping impuls, and, well, every other thing. and for the don't-know-how-many-time, she mentioned about if our skin is ever transparent..imagine..eewzzkk.. i wouldn't even want to think about it. i guess we won't even need something called the x-ray by then.
i was so damn caught up with physic, that my mind is still chuncked up and filled with physics. when teacher started talking about 'unit asas' for the nervous system is neuron, i was wondering why did the nervous system even have a "unit asas" and i was thinking of physics and the unit asas such as kilogram, metre, Kelvin, seconds, and Ampere. what the heck?!~ haha..where on earth am i? and when she started talking about impuls, i thought of the daya impuls. i must be crazy.. lol
i can't believe i still haven't finish studying my physics, and my eyes are already half-closed...but it's only about 9:30 p.m. with the physics book on my lap and my heart not in it at all. o'dear.. i wish i could just concentrate a lil while longer more and finish up the revision, and go to bed early, and just get ready to flunk the whole phy paper II tmrw.
i was reading through the "optic" chapter earlier today, and reading the "dwicelah young" just reminded me so much of young. haha. not that i really know him at all, but it was fun being his trainer. gosh, i missed those times when i was so in charge of almost everything. those days are gone, but i will move on.
almost a day after insanity chucking my brain with both physic experiments and formulas and everything plus history and happenings. i still could remember those settings and the english paper. gawsshh....
i hope i did well enough in both my english paper I and II. of course, i have never doubt my english marks. they had been almost my top subject every year, and every exam, except for my last year end's term. surprisingly, i could get a 90% for history. cool... how i damn wish i could score just as well this coming friday.. gawd...
things are finally lookin up a lil. still the same old me...but i feel less stressed and definitely, think i did alright for my b.m. paper. both of 'em. i guess..cause i've got enought tips from my friends, and being able to finally dig out a few last minute points for me .. yup. i feel alright now.
it's been a longggg day out fer me. Spending approximately 3 whole hours at Universal. the room is small, with a jam packed students. and we were considerably .. late : 1:30p.m... not exactly late. but there are only few places left. caryn, ooi peng and i sat at the front row.
i can feel pressure pressing in from both sides of my brain...and i still do now. after all, sitting at the front-most row wasn't exactly the best idea, but i did learnt a lot. *hUgS*
:: Saturday, May 04, 2002 ::
gosh.... couldn't believe i slept till 10:30 am today. i felt so stressed up, i almost died. i did break down last night, and cried a lil. well, it wasn't the first time. mom had been emotionally available and supportive -- consoled me and told me to "sleep earlier tonight". yeap i did.
in mid afternoon, i still didn't have to mood to study. where's the faith i had in me? where did it go? geeez.. i just hope daddy and mommy won't put too much hope on me this exam...ohh..don't ask me why, just don't. don't even as me how i feel now....cause i'm feeling worse than worst.
You're a true nature chick who loves the outdoors. Because you're always running from activity to activity, you have zero time for a full, fussy face of makeup. Instead, you want to be able to hop out of the shower, pull your hair into a ponytail, slap on some sunscreen, and go. Just make sure that your laid-back, all-things-natural attitude doesn't lead to you become lazy -even on-the-go girls need to glam themselves up sometimes!
What's Your Style?
X-Men Characterare You?
Scott Summers aka Cyclops: Fearless leader of the X-Men, responsible & mature, wise beyond your years, probably the greatest stick in the mud in the history of mankind.
And sure, your peers probably talk about you behind your back, but when it comes right down to it, they know they can turn on you in a crisis.
I drove myself crazy by stressing myself up over this examination. I am totally unprepared, and thinking of so many more weeks to go just made me even sick. Already sick, and having a bad headache. I reckon I did real bad for my Bio paper. The worst examination I've ever took. For the first time, I felt so unprepared for an exam. Gawd...and I feel so sleepy. Most of the time. - the stress is killing me.
I miss those times when I was still a little kid, and life was nothing but summertime. Innocent and free. *sigh* but those were the days, and it's impossible to turn back time.
How time flies. It flew by right before my eyes, and now we're all grown up and changed in so many ways. I think five years from now, I'll look back and say : how time had swept by, and five years have passed. We're all changed completely.
Nostalgic memories revived everytime any random songs from 'coast to coast' plays on my mind. And everytime I think of holidays. Everytime I think of bintang walk, of relaxing and being free. Stress-free, that is. I could still remember January 4th, and it had never fail to make me smile. That was my last day at work in fish & co. the last day, and it was a day I work totally full shift. young had to go to college that morning, so he gave me his morning shift. I still remember that chicken croissant from san fransisco - my breakfast that morning.
I remember distributing flyers in that navy blue shirt and bermudas. Standing in front of the "dome entrance", "san fransisco entrance" and in between klp and Lot 10. Smiling at people I don't even know. Tolerating manners of complete strangers from all walks of life. Meeting human of all races. People with all kinds of attitude.
Those times when it was jam packed with customers - I was the rollerblade-girl. Taking orders, serving food. Chatting with the foreigners - most of them are friendly. Far friendlier than most local customers. Among all the customers, I remembered this couple who had been extremely patient and friendly. They have three complimentary dishes an extra complimentary tea from us because of some order errors. I also remember little Sarah, a real adorable lil girl who claimed her favourite fish is Dory fish. She had been eating at fish & co. for 3 times during her stay in kl. LoL.
Then there were times when it was as quiet as could be .... eating dinner @ staff meals at the corner, and in the back-of-the-house [BOH]. Last few days of work as Hermes and Young's trainer. I think the part I liked most was the closing part. but most people started doubting my sanity when I told them I love the closing. they go like "the closing? You liked the closing?" - surprised, I guess. It was fun.
Washing toilets, mopping the floor, wiping wooden blocks and side stations. I was carrying tables for exam few days back, and it brought me back to those nights when I had to carry tables which are twice heavier than those. And I remember having muscle pains few days after that. In fact, it lasted for a week.
Somehow, working there had been fun. And it played a huge role in my life. I guess it must've been partly the location. Bintang walk sure do mean a lot to me. It was the place I "grew up". Sort of... one thing for sure, my alma mater was there. I spent most of my weekends there when I was younger - mom always bring us to shop and walk around the bb area. way back before star hill and bintang walk even existed.
