Disastrous
"Can't Wait For Nothing"
I thought I've waited so long for the exams to end, waited for a whole damn month, it felt so in-energizing now. I felt so dead studying so hard right on the day before science subject papers. Then suddenly find the fun in studying Biology. Yet, tomorrow's my last paper of AS finals but I just feel stupid, sick, depressed. Few days ago, I can't wait for Redbox and Coffee Bean. Can't wait for roller coaster ride marathon, can't wait for holidays. Right now, it all doesn't even matter much. I am tired, sleepy and felt like I could crack into pieces =) Maybe disappear.
When it doesn't even feel comfortable anymore falling flat on the bed, or when there's still this invisible burden on your shoulder and it did not help no matter how to try to push it off, and you don't even need a reason to find it hard to breath. And when things that never bothered before suddenly seem to big, and you can stare blankly into nowhere and suddenly have tears in your eyes, and you feel like crying out hard but the tears just won't come out...not like it can even solve any problem at all. It's just that...maybe there's this time when we will feel earthbound (or more like hell bound). Maybe it's just a temporary mental disruption. We'll just have to look at the brighter side of things. I'll be fine. It isn't end of the world yet.
posted by Nic @ 21:44
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