Indescribable
Five months have past since, and everything's changed. For so short a time could change many things in live - even a split second could make a difference. For this five months changed my life in so many ways - I've made many decisions in live I would not regret.
I fell in love with Italy. The memories, time spent with family despite the arguments and misunderstandings, the cute guys I met...the sunset, and the pizza - unforgettable. They're the best (especially the ones in Florence)! Being back in Bristol brought me memories of winter. I love those times, and it was so funny I wished the sun wouldn't shine everyday when everyone else wished for the contrary. It finally snowed, one night...I felt like the luckiest girl. Only a month there, but the come back felt like I've returned to a place I've known very long.
They say you find love at the places you least expected. I didn't know how true, I've never really been in love. Of course, I love my family, my Darling, my friends, and myself. From time to time I've been in and out of crush. So many people I liked before, and then hated. I hated myself for being like that and refrained myself from liking anyone. It kept me wondering how people could be with each other for so long. How did they talk it all out, how feelings could grow and not fade. Was it my expectations, or was it incompatibility? Was it insecurity, or was it that I never let my feelings run free? Was it lust, or love? Was it just a little crush...Maybe I couldn't love myself enough to start liking someone else.
A guy I used to like for a while came back into my life - for perhaps half a year he was out of it. I didn't like the idea of him being my boo and ignored it. But that persistent guy convinced me into thinking "what's wrong with that anyway. Wasn't going to be his Boo for real...why not just play along?" I was sure he was just calling it for the heck of it. After all, a disappointment I was faced with has just taught me to give up on looking for someone to like and love. But things took a twist of destiny. And after all the obstacles, he's still my boo. He was the best surprise in my life, it took me so long to realise. And I've finally got the answer to the questions I had been looking for. It takes trust, honesty and loyalty.
posted by Nic @ 10:44
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